Yesterday I got just a minuscule taste of how Abraham must have felt as he prepared to sacrifice his son. I was driving to the hospital to take Ethan to get his chemo treatments, along with his bone marrow and lumbar puncture, and the closer I got, the harder it was for me to keep going. I felt so bad that I was driving my little one to something that was going to make him sick and cause him pain. I knew it was going to be hard for him, and I felt bad that I had to subject him to what he was going to have to endure. I got to thinking of Abraham obeying our Heavenly Father and sacrificing his son. Unlike Abraham, I knew the procedures that Ethan was getting was needed to save his life. Abraham was taking his son to die. With that being said, our Heavenly Father sacrificed His son for us. Christ took on the pains, sicknesses, and sins of the world so that that we might live again, and have the opportunity to return to our Heavenly Father. Christ suffered so that this trial, even though at times seems unbearable, was made lighter for me, and MY son, so that we could bear it. It's almost overwhelming to even think about what both our Heavenly Father and our Savior must have gone through for the greater good of the world!
Ethan's procedures went well. He is very tired, and has very little energy, but he seems to be doing well. He wants to be held A LOT, which I don't blame him! His counts as of yesterday were: White blood cells- 800, platelets-9 (he got a transfusion yesterday, so that's higher now), blasts-9%, ANC/immune-100, red blood- 32.4.
As always, thank you for your endless love and support! You have all been such amazing examples ,to me and my family!
Jennifer every time I read about our think about Ethan I cry. I can't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. I CANNOT image what you must be going through right now. I am SO sorry you and your family have to endure this trial. I am so grateful to you for the absolutely amazing example you set for me. I adore how you to turn to the Lord and have so much faith and trust in him. I wish you all the best with this rough situation.
ReplyDelete